Yet to get an explanation

I've been seeing some paranoic connections that Obama has been making lately concerning fatness and swine flu, again being accused as a pig. I question his sadism because this one obviously gets to me. I have yet to get an explanation as to why and I feel I almost need to debate, philosophize, and defend over this matter.

"Last week alone, 2,500 people were hospitalized for swine flu" (I'm 25 years old) He also referred to a fat cat, which I dissected in last weeks anatomy lab. When I hear swine flu and fear of being infected, I hear "you're sick for acting like a pig and I don't want your piggishness rubbing off on everyone.

I still consider myself an oppressed person. I'll combine both good and bad of what I have said to prove my point.

The good I have said:
-Multiple times I have had defense.
-People have made me laugh from time to time and have been entertaining for me.

The bad I have said and still say:
-I have a horrible work history mostly because of conspiracies and a few matrix men who have felt entitled to vindication which have ultimately nothing to do with my work life, but either my present or past where they could have felt cheated (when they never had me to begin with, both romantically and respectfully).
-I have horrible credit now that will take me years to catch up on. My car is on the verge of breaking down any day, when it does, I will have no transportation. Last time I checked, my credit wasn't good enough to buy a new one. I didn't want to buy it out of ego or greed; it wasn't even that fancy of a car, just a modern economical one that I would rather pay for than the tons of times paying for my car when it breaks down.
-If I ever find a man who loves me back, I will be of no use to him because of my debt, my work history, and my credit history. If I do find a man in this age, the only man that would want me is a redneck looking for a homemaker and will have no problem with the codepency of it all. The sugarmen want someone who is supermodel like. There is no balance for me.
-I havn't had a man in years.
-I've been lonely for quite sometime. I have no friends. Business acquaintences that I have no idea how to make use of for a realistic relation. Every once in awhile its shits and giggles, but do we call each other on the phone? no. do we do lunch? no. do we hangout on a normal basis? no. These acquaintences have been enemies at times. I see no loyal dogs who would be there for me no matter what plus without any verbal abuse or fairness in judgement or conversation. So to consider myself privelaged in talking to some people is a little iffy.
-As for family, they are either distant, controlling, or neglectfully and extremeley minimizing.
-I obviously deal with a lot of negativity.

****But you know what? I busted my ass at school. I busted my ass at work. I bust my ass in my spare time. I didn't even get a free ride to school and have to pay for it.
I've provided a lot of entertainment and things to talk about for the past years in this other world that is scattered and hard to bridge. More than half the time I try, I'm either labeled as a schiz or a druggie. Every once in awhile, I'll make a connection, but eventually it evolves into an unfair and controlling one.
I feel starved, and on a lot of occasions abused. Because of the unfairness, I feel there are a lot of misunderstandings. I don't get paid for entertainment, I don't get paid for the time I put into communicating, bridging, networking, or working things out. I have to deal with this other world that I feel I don't bear the biggest responsibility for being there. I really don't blame myself much at all for it coming about. I have a lot to deal with. I could get a lot more done if I didn't have to worry about bridging, about attackers, abusers, conspirators, hypnotizers, distractors, discrepancies, mind games, users, bullshitters, and slave laborers. I could think of a lot of other negatory names that I complain about often.

But I seriously have yet to get an explanation with this pig label. What just because I won't allow some people to be controlling of me? That I don't need their validation? I hate this accusation.

I know there are people who suffer more than I do and who have it off worse than I do. I am focused on my survival and will not let me make myself less and less selfless. I'm not saying I believe in survival of the fittest, I'm saying I work for my living and I need to really be self-focused right now. I think any other person should have opportunities, but that is their choice if they want to take it.